what is time but a waiting period that's being occupied by distraction?

i'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired.
i had a series of dreams the other night that all contained water or liquid of some sort.
shower,toilet,urine,water slide, dirty/muddy swimming pool and feces.
i wont get completely into detail but i looked further into these dreams and they resemble my need to clarify my mind, body and soul.
i'm being swept away by my emotions and allowing them to overcome me.
i'm being too "passive" with these feelings and need to deal with them.
i mean, these are things that i know subconciously but it means so much more when it comes to you in this form. like my subconcoious was so overwhelmed with suppressed feelings that it needed to show me what i need to do before it's too late.
i've been stressing about a LOT of things lately. work, money, probation, my relationships with others....
i do this often.
i guess i've been supressing these emotions because i've felt them so many times, over and over before.
it drains me to the point of tears.
i cant sleep at night and when i finally do, it's morning and there's no use.
i try so hard NOT to let it overwhelm me but i'm just a giant ball of emotion.
i have writers block. i lack motivation. you would think this would encourage me but all i want to do is sleep. it distracts me from what's really going on around me.
well, usually.
i haven't been to the studio in a couple months.
i've got tracks written and ready to be recorded but i never have time because i practically LIVE at the shop.
i dont mind being here. it's my life. i chose it. i enjoy it. but it leaves no time for extra curricular activities.
i sing often. i make up songs while im in the shower. it soothes me.
i sing in my sleep. last night it was hometown glory by adele. it was nice.
i guess what i'm trying to say is....i'm sad.

Team Sleep