the goods...

so my bff/baby momma brittany was having a horrible day and i just happend to get stood up on my day off after making plans with someone the previous night.
it doesn't surprise me that this person forgot that we made plans because this person is always intoxicated in some way,shape or form...
but ANYWHO!!!!!!

i'd been CRAVING boba tea for like a week already and everytime i was in the process of finally getting some, plans would change and my hopes would go from high apple pie in the sky to low down ODB type ish.

anywho, brittany's never had boba tea before and her curiousity led us to bobalicious (which happend to be located in the same shopping center as chopsticks).
neither of us had eaten and i REALLY had my heart set on sushi because my previous plans entailed sushi happy hour at goro's (which, btw am still craving.)

so bobalicious closes at 8 and brit shows up to my house at like 15 til.
so we make it with like 5 minutes on the clock and homeboy was kind enough to make us our BOBALICIOUS smoothie/tea after i described how fatally serious my craving was. (and if you're already thinking it, NO, i am NOT preggo).

so moving forward....
i ordered the "san antonian" which consists of strawberry,avacado (and since it's milk based i had the option of soy, which i took the opportunity of substituting) and of COURSE black tapioca pearls (for those who have no idea what boba tea is).
brittany had NO IDEA how to even order so she chose a flavor and i ordered for her.
honey milk tea, shaken (not blended).

as we waited for our yummy beverages to be prepared, we sat at a table and attempted to play the game TROUBLE, which neither of us remembered how to play.
so we improvised and made up our own rules.
luckily the barista was quick enough to deliver before we got completely frustrated and knocked the table over, sending the game soaring into the shelf of many board games behind us. LOL

needless to say, they were DEEEEELISH! and it felt like a party in my mouth!

then we made our way to chopsticks which was agreed upon because i could have sushi there and brittany could induldge in whatever her little heart desired (considering she's nearly 8mnths pregnant and cannot eat raw seafood).
to be quite honest, the sushi was NOT BAD and surprisingly satisfied my taste buds and belly.

moving on to desert....
i grabbed a slice of strawberry cheesecake and a scoop of strawberry ice cream.
i took one bite of each and it was sooooo good.
on my second attempt i found this long, curly wire which resembled that of a wire brillo pad used to scrub dishes!
i was like DOUBLE YOO TEE EFF?!?!?

called the server over (who was having a really tough time with her section cuz there was like 3938267348 kids getting on her nerves) and showed her the piece of metal that i found.
brittany and i were both laughing so of course, she found humor in it and laughed with us.
i asked for her manager and as she walked away, i plotted with brittany to get our money back.
so i started coughing loudly and grabbing my throat as if i were choking.
trying her hardest not to laugh, brittany just sat back and drank her tea, while i made a scene and waited for the manager to arrive. (keep in mind our server was laughing this whole time because it really was funny)
i told him what happend and showed him the piece of metal that i claimed to have hit the back of my throat and continued to cough, explaining to him that my friend "did NOT know the heimlich maneuver" and that i "could have died" lmao!
so this little chinese man apologizes like 294534860 times in a row, takes my ticket and comes back with my money. *laughing out loud*

he walked us out, apologized again and stated how he HOPED we'd come back. hahahahahahaha


so with that money, we went to the movies and saw THE GOODS, which btw, is a fucking HILARIOUS flick that i recommend watching high.....if not, that's cool, just watch it!!!!!!

although i felt as if we were the only ones laughing to the extent which i'm assuming the producers expected(will ferrel being one of them), we still had an amazing time and this story to tell.


thank you and goodnight.

life is....

watching the stars fall above your head at night wondering where the sky begins...

sittin'

like a bird sittin high
twitter.com/hope_4 @Brittany_02

hope LESS

i know it sounds bitter but don't get your hopes up so high that they're completely out of reach.
i finally found hope in a person who i believed was on the same level and wanted the same things as i do but in all actuality, this person has NO IDEA what they want.
one minute it's all good, we're enjoying each other's company, talking bout the future and the next minute there is NO future....
i've been built up and let down so many times in my life that i can no longer count them on one hand.
i dont go out looking for relationships. i let them come to me. and when they do (which is rarely), i embrace them with everything i have.
im tired of scared ass little boys (who are older than me, btw) who are afraid to settle down, or open up, for that matter.
i'm sorry you've been hurt by other girls. i'm sorry that you're emotionally unstable.
but dont put up a front and act like you're ready to be with me when you're really not.
i understand your hustle and your lifestyle. we live an extremely similar lifestyle.
i dig change. i NEED change. and i thought i found it but it's all the same shit that i've been through a thousand times over.
i DESERVE to be happy. i DESERVE to be taken care of.
i've taken care of other people all my life! it's MY turn!
i'm a good person. and a bomb ass girlfriend, if i do say so, myself.
im all about individuality, and equality and space.
i don't expect you to leave your crew and be all mine....just make me a part of whatever it is you do.
if not, fine, just come home to me at the end of the night.
thats all i ask.
you do you, i'll do me, and we'll meet somewhere in between and make it happen.
just stop being so effin' SCARED!!!!!!!
just cuz you got your heart broken in the past by some bitch, it doesn't mean all girls are the same!
if i allowed myself to become bitter and put up a wall to keep people from coming into my life, i'd be an emotional cripple!
i'm sorry. i'm just being honest.
grow the fuck up and figure your shit out.
get your mind right and stop fuckin with other people's emotions (as well as your own).

i'm only venting here because i dont feel the need to call and cry to someone about my problems.



anita g.

i want out!

dont get me wrong.
i love my city.
i love my homies.
but i hate the fact that EVERYONE has beef with someone!
either that or someone brings up old shit about you that doesn't even matter, or never DID matter and turns it into something completely immature and irrational.
i need new people in my life.
people that are on my level.
people that can just relax.
i need to relax.
but its hard when all your friends are stressed or stressing you about something or the other....
i need easy going, free spirited, educated individuals who will sit and chat with me instead of yelling over the blaring music at the bar.
i mean, i'm not trying to run away from ANYTHING or ANYONE in particular.
i'm not even running.
i'm taking my time.
i just crave diversity.
i crave experience.
i crave new personalities and faces i've never seen.
lips i've never kissed.
hands i've never held.
minds i've never explored.
the exchange of words with new society i guess.
i'm not meant to be in one place.

pray for me.

requerdos...

i remember the first time our eyes met in a different light.
we stared at our feet all night and the minute i decided to look up, you did the same...and we were re-introduced.

i remember the look in your eyes when i said i was down to roll with you.
i remember the ride home.
i remember gettin' there. lying there. staring at the glowing box in front of your bed.
getting comfortable and waiting.

you: "does this feel right to you?"
me: "yeah"

i remember your head in my hands and my head in yours and both our hearts beating prefusely with nerves and emotion,hesitation,confusion,want, and need all at the same time....
when our lips met for the very first time it was like the missing piece to my puzzeled little brain that had been waiting for this feeling for so long.
they fit so perfectly.
moved so perfectly...
it was like it had been premeditated for years.
your hands knew mine.
my hands embraced yours.
and our bodies connected instantly.
all hesitation vanished.
and any question as to weather or not this felt right dissappeard just as quickly.
it was like we already knew each other.
i opened my eyes every once in a while to see the satisfaction on your face.
and then i closed them instantly before you caught me.
i felt like i was where i belonged.
i couldn't sleep cuz all i could think about was you and you were right next to me.
i guess i was just waiting for tomorrow so the feeling would linger into the next day...
which it did.
and into the next.
and the next...
and then....you disappeard.

i then realized, it was only a dream.


be careful what you hope for.

recooping

from the past couple days.
partied too hard from friday til saturday morning.
haven't done that in a looooong time!
slept all through saturday night and i still feel like shit.
my equilibrium is off. my body aches. and my mind is elsewhere.
still grinding harder than ever though!
need to make more dough so i can catch santogold tomorrow!!!!!
missin' a certain someone occupies all my free time these days.
cant seem to think of anything else...
maybe that's why my head hurts so badly....ugh
i'm over it.