i know it sounds bitter but don't get your hopes up so high that they're completely out of reach.
i finally found hope in a person who i believed was on the same level and wanted the same things as i do but in all actuality, this person has NO IDEA what they want.
one minute it's all good, we're enjoying each other's company, talking bout the future and the next minute there is NO future....
i've been built up and let down so many times in my life that i can no longer count them on one hand.
i dont go out looking for relationships. i let them come to me. and when they do (which is rarely), i embrace them with everything i have.
im tired of scared ass little boys (who are older than me, btw) who are afraid to settle down, or open up, for that matter.
i'm sorry you've been hurt by other girls. i'm sorry that you're emotionally unstable.
but dont put up a front and act like you're ready to be with me when you're really not.
i understand your hustle and your lifestyle. we live an extremely similar lifestyle.
i dig change. i NEED change. and i thought i found it but it's all the same shit that i've been through a thousand times over.
i DESERVE to be happy. i DESERVE to be taken care of.
i've taken care of other people all my life! it's MY turn!
i'm a good person. and a bomb ass girlfriend, if i do say so, myself.
im all about individuality, and equality and space.
i don't expect you to leave your crew and be all mine....just make me a part of whatever it is you do.
if not, fine, just come home to me at the end of the night.
thats all i ask.
you do you, i'll do me, and we'll meet somewhere in between and make it happen.
just stop being so effin' SCARED!!!!!!!
just cuz you got your heart broken in the past by some bitch, it doesn't mean all girls are the same!
if i allowed myself to become bitter and put up a wall to keep people from coming into my life, i'd be an emotional cripple!
i'm sorry. i'm just being honest.
grow the fuck up and figure your shit out.
get your mind right and stop fuckin with other people's emotions (as well as your own).
i'm only venting here because i dont feel the need to call and cry to someone about my problems.
anita g.
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Well at least you weren't blogging about how awesome that person is only to have them peace out on you..... Go to The Rabbit Saturday and mosh out your frustration to Poison The Well. I will be there moshing with small hammers during Trapped Under Ice.
ReplyDeleteSucka mosh