what happends next?

what happens when you realize the people you surround yoruself with have had enough of you?
and vice versa.
the people you call your "brothers" and "sisters" become "that dude" or "that chick"
"that dude is wilin' yo"

what happens when you get to the point where you absolutely have to escape the place you call home to feel safe and vulnerable to positive energy?

what happens when you come to a point in time when you're constantly questioning yourself?
what am i gonna do?
who am i gonna rely on?
who's real?

sadly, people grow apart...
or tired of each other, for that matter.
i strongly believe in time and space.
i love my friends dearly.
i care.
i support.
i'm down.
but what about me?

lately i was told "you only think about yourself"
it's true.
it's my turn.
this is MY journey.
i need some "ME" time ya'll!
i need to focus on MY career and MY relationships.
MY happiness. MY needs. MY habits. MY faults. MY choices, MY mistakes. MY insecurities. MY hustle. MY emotions. MY lack, there of.
i'm constantly asking myself why so many relationships fail...
i realized it's because we need to love and support ourselves fully and individually before we attempt to do that for each other.
it's only fair.
for us as people. as individuals. as humans.
i'm not saying i want to be alone. or be left alone for that matter.
all i'm saying, is do YOU and let ME do ME...
and we'll meet somewhere in the middle.
my heart is way too heavy with my own emotions to be responsible for someone elses...

so what happens next?